Outfit Justification: I'm totally sore from a Zumba and ab workout. I went totally casual because frankly when you're this sore, you're lucky you're able to even put clothes on. And since I don't feel like being arrested for indecent exposure, I opted for this.
Countdown to 40:
This is a blog that I've been trying to write for months. I've tried to attack it from a couple of different perspectives. I've looked at it from a reflective point of view. I've looked at it from a negative point of view. I've looked at the pro's and con's of my life point of view. But ultimately I could never really bring myself to publish it. Whatever I wrote never seemed to really convey my true thoughts and feelings about turning 40. And then today I was responding to an email to my friend Natalie. And the below paragraph summed up my feelings the best:
Today is exactly a month till my birthday. I'm really trying to make the most of these last 30 days. And do what I can to really get myself in a condition that I'm happy with. Meaning, I want to be feeling good in my body. I'm seeing the shrink, and that will help with the mental part. But I have to do the rest of it too, the physical activity, the healthy diet. It's hard. But I have to keep working at it. Even after the big birthday. I need to start focusing on how I want to feel and then start feeling it. I know this isn't going to change overnight. I can't get the weight off as quickly as I have done in the past. I'm older, I'm working against a thyroid condition. I've chosen a weight loss method that is slow (Weight Watchers) in an effort to keep the weight off long term. These are things that I have to accept. But I have to still continue on. I want people to see me as a gorgeous, hot, fabulous, smart, fun and an accomplished 40 year old. That's going to be a work in progress. As I write this, I feel like I need to turn this paragraph into a blog. This is me trying to make positive changes. It's going to be a slow process, but at least I'm doing something.
The title of my story should be: Doing Something: The Vivian Rogers Story
I have a month to really enjoy the last of my 30's. I'll do my best to not dread turning 40. There will be times in this month when I might get a little sad about getting older. Some of that is fear of what's ahead of me. I'm entitled to feel this way. But I'm going to focus on all the things I'm grateful for in my life:
- I'm married to the most wonderful guy who truly embodies the definition of unconditional love
- I have wonderful friends and family that I love
- I'm blessed with the ability to sing well
- I work at a company that has some amazing perks and sounds good when I talk about it
- I do my best to have fun and do interesting things
- I have the ability to be honest about my life and feelings through writing
- I have a creative mind that has managed to take places I never thought I'd go in life
My hope is that age 40 will be my best year yet. My action item is to continue doing something to make it even more fabulous. Starting off with a fantastic birthday party!
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