Decisions and Changes

Today’s Attire:  I’m wearing a sleeveless cotton black and white polka dot dress with a deep V in the front (Macy’s $42) I’ve paired it with a black and white mesh and leather loafers (Rockport Outlet $19). I’ve accessorized with my Elsa Peretti silver star and my Swarovski stud earrings (Tippr.com $2)

Outfit Justification: This dress is vintage-inspired. I love this dress for so many reasons.  It reminds me of the pinup shoot I did for Jeff’s birthday.  I specifically bought this dress for his surprise birthday party that I threw for him. I wanted him to have his pinup girl and this was my way of giving it to him. I guess today I wanted to have the happy feeling again of being that pinup girl, in an office appropriate way.

Decisions and Changes:

So yesterday I was thrown for a loop when an opportunity was offered to me. This opportunity would change my life pretty drastically. It would require me to move from the only city I’ve ever lived in. I would be away from all my family and friends. Since this was offered up to me I’ve been in a constant flux of emotions about this. When it was originally suggested, I immediately thought I can’t do this. But after thinking about it some more and posing it Jeff, it really did seem like an amazing opportunity that’s almost too good to turn down. More money, better opportunity to do what I do best and a new adventure would be on the horizon for us. Now it really is something to think about. And I’ve been able to think of nothing else.

I was born and raised here in Los Angeles.  I’ve only lived in two cities, Santa Monica and Culver City. Jeff has only lived in Westchester and Culver City.  We’ve both have our whole lives here. My last blog was about me and my relationship with my friends. My friends mean the world to me. This opportunity would take me away from all of them. Of course they could visit, but it isn’t the same. I’d leave some of my favorite people in my life that keep me up and running: my vocal coach who has been helping get back to my rock star status, my hairdresser who maintains and encourage the blue in my hair, my financial planners who help me behave like an adult and keep me in line financially, my favorite KJ’s who encourage me and make me laugh whenever I do karaoke.

This opportunity would take me away from my routine of hanging out, dining out, going to karaoke, taking impromptu trips to Vegas, Palm Springs, San Diego, and Santa Barbara. This would change my pursuit of a singing career because I wouldn’t be in LA, the hub of the music industry which is saturated with a bunch of hopefuls.

There are so many good compelling reasons to make this move, good career move, cheaper cost of living, more money, a good fit for my skills, an opportunity to live someplace else and start new, the be able to start singing someplace else and the possibility of being more successful there than I am here. 

And then there are our parents, who we’ve never lived more than away 7 miles away from. Our parents who love us dearly and we love dearly who are older.  If something should happen to either one of them we can be there immediately. If we make this move, that’s won’t be as easy.

I’m completely at a loss as to what to do. We’re still exploring all our options and what this opportunity would really mean for us.  We’re looking at all the logistics of whether this can happen or not.

For now this is all I can write. I guess this is the beginnings of my pro con list as to whether to make this move or not.  I’d love to hear your thoughts and feelings on this. Ultimately this is our decision, but the feedback really helps us think about things we haven’t considered yet